The first image is about waiting and time. I can be very impatient and impulsive. Patience is not my strong suit. Right now I’m forced to practice the former and suffer the consequences for the latter. Being impulsive can lead to making the wrong decision. I’ve made a lot of mistakes in the past (and I will make more in the future), and although people say to learn from it and move on (they are right), I also tend to get really down on myself for having made these terrible decisions, and not knowing my boundaries, and not knowing when to set them, enforce them, or whatever. I’m old enough to know better, but these things still elude me. I have a lot of regrets and I tend to feel like they cannot be forgiven. I want to say I want to be held accountable and remember them so I don’t do it again, especially when those decisions I make affect others. I know I’m speaking in esoteric terms. I won’t say more, but all I can say is this: at least I’m in therapy.
